Philippians 4:6

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God"

For the whole day this verse has been resignating in my mind with me. I guess it started this afternoon as I waited and anticipated a pretty important meeting that I wasn't sure how it was going to end up.
I guess you could say that I am a pretty anxious person, and that is something that has only begun recently, and is pretty difficult to deal with. I find myself in situations where I become so totally anxious and consumed by what is possibly going to happen next, that I get all wound up and can't even think straight.

Today as I anticipated my meeting, the only thing running through my head was "do not be anxious!" I knew there was bible verse pertaining this, but I couldn't for the life of me remember what it was. So what did I do? I just typed into google "do not be anxious" and the first thing that came up was this verse. I knew that it was exactly what I was thinking of, and I think it's just so great how God works in these situations. He puts a thought in your mind and doesn't just easily give you the answer, he makes you search for it. And ultimately that's what God wants us to do in our relationship with him. He wants us to search for him, seek him out, and draw near to him in times of weakness, troubles, hardships, happiness, and even times of anxiety.

Well, I am now on a break from a lot of things in my life in order to help me focus and figure out where my life is headed, and what to do next. Although I don't really agree with this break, or really want to have it, I do know that it is needed, and will definitely be a great time to focus on myself, school, and most of all my relationship with God.

This past weekend I went home to work, and on Saturday night I went to a church service in London, which is something I quite often do when I am home and am working day shift. Anyways, at this service a song was sung..."Meet With Me" by Ten Shekel Shirt. This is a song that I have known for a very long time, but have just recently(saturday) been re-aquinted with, and have fell in love with it all over again.

It's just one of those songs that speaks such great truth, and is something that "you just need to hear", and totally helps. I have been listening to it like crazy since Saturday, and is something that I am working towards. I so long to meet with God again. To have a solid relationship with him, and have him back in my life. Ya sure, he never left my life, but I kind of strayed away, and need to find my way back. Hearing this song on Saturday showed me just how much I need to be back on track, how much I need God.

I used to be so surrounded by God, and was my life. I did everything with him, and made sure that everything I did was Glorifying to him. As my life has gone on, for the past couple years I feel like that isn't my greatest priority, and it feels horrible. I so long to meet with God again, and to have my life back to how it was. To be a happy, joyful person again. I know that it'll happen soon, so maybe this break is a blessing in disguise....
I guess, in time I'll figure out..but for now, I'll never know.

Love you all,
Stephanie.

PS...here's the link for the song if you wanna hit it up and listen to it...I HIGHLY recommend it..it's super great :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMb3xBsGiZU