Oh, how time flies....

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I will Remember You.....

10 Years today my bestfriend/sister passed away. She was 16 when she left this crazy world, and I was 10. I was so confused. I really didn't know what was happening, and I definitely didn't understand the concept of death. I was in such denial the night we got the phone call that I didn't want to believe that she was really gone, I mean she was REALLY gone, and I would never get to see her again.

The years to come after her death I expected to become easier. People always told me as time goes on it gets easier, well the truth: that statement is a LIE!(mostly) As time went on I found that dealing with her death actually got harder. I felt like with each passing day, week, month, and year times got harder, however it wasn't until I realized that I needed to forgive God for something he really didn't do before it could get easier.
I never really grieved, mainly for the fact that I didn't know how to do it. Over the past couple weeks, I have started my grieving process and feel like I have completed most of it. I have come to be at peace with the fact that my sister is gone and the she FOR SURE is in Heaven waiting for me. That I will get to see her once again, and will finally get to say the things I've always wished I could say to her. For example " I love you, and thank you for making me who I am today" I am sure of it, that without my sister in general, and without her death i wouldn't have come to know Christ. I am at peace with God, and I am going to celebrate and praise the Lord on this day!

Alanna,
You were the best friend that I always had. I will always Remember you, and never forget that hilarious laugh you had. A smile was always plastered on your face and you could make anyone happy. The 10 years we had together was amazing, and if I had the chance to take you back for a day I would. But I am happy you are up there sitting my our wonderful saviour and saving me a spot right next to you. You are the most beautiful women inside and out, and know that everything I do in my life is because of the influence you had on me.
You are my big sister, my best friend, and my biggest inspiration in life. I wish you could be here, infact I wish you could have had a life longer than 16, but God knows whats best and I plan to carry-on your life.
I Love you soooo much and I miss you like crazy!

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